EL.

2012-01-06T14:41:00.002+08:00

First I would like to wish you all

MERRY CHRISTMAS

and HAPPY NEW YEAR.

I know it's a little bit late, but better than never.

Got my result back, I got all A for 8 subjects except fr 1, and that is the local civic education(KEWARGANEGARAAN) I got a B fr it.

I'm not into Indonesian language you see.

I never get a chance to learn the proper Indonesian language.

Well, I moved to Singapore ever since I was nine and got back to Jakarta only in 2008.

What's new?

For those who predicted 2012 is the end of the world, well we'll see.

If we can see a post in my blog dated 2013, that's to say they failed.

It's been raining cats and dogs recently in Jakarta, most people curse it.

However, I definitely love the weather. It doesn't make me perspire much and definitely save my makeup.

I think I will need an assistant teacher soon. Thank God for all the students who keep coming (:

Elbert can speak a dozen of words like "no", "mama", "mam(eat)", "bath", "bye", "nen(milk)", "yes", "bobo(sleep)", "nainai(that's what he call my mom)" "mba(tht's what he call my maid)" and so on.

The interesting thing is, he understand most English words and not that much of Indonesian. He like Barney and he's grown attach to the big barney doll I bought for him.

What's on my mind?

I wanna earn more than now so I can hire a few assistant and get on another business (:

2011-12-05T12:25:00.003+08:00

Life partner.

This came across my mind as I was thinking about the varieties of food we consume everyday.

We have all kinds of potato menus starting from mashed potato, baked potato, french fries, curly fries etc.
However, it all comes down to one basic ingredient: potato.

Well, what does this potato has to do with life partner?

We search everywhere just to find that right partner. Thinking we've got the right partner, we spend millions of dollars on a one-day party.
After a few years, we realised he/she started to look plain, ugly and boring.
We complain about their protruding stomaches, fats on their hips, the noise pollution they create every night, and the list goes on.
Our radar suddenly came to life on its own, seeing a handsome/pretty being infront of us, we start to fall in love again, feeling all young and so on.
We re-marry start things all over again and a few years later, we end up on the same alley as we were.
The new partner starts to look ugly too, boring and irritating. Many times, we find them much worse than our previous partner.

Why?
Because both are human, they aged, they wrinkles, they say the same things over and over again, etc.
They have the same basic ingredients when God created each and everyone of them.

So why not start create extra-ordinary partner with the ingredients they already have in them?
Be a creative 'chef' so that your 'cooking' will receive positive comments and people can appreciate it.
Your life partner needs no one else but you to make them into the most amazing individuals they can be.

2011-10-28T09:39:00.002+08:00

I tweeted more than I blogged.

Last week, Bert went to the park to play with Daniel.
Then there was this boy who had a remote-control car, bert wanted to borrow it, but the boy didnt allow him. Bert cried.
When Daniel got home, he told me about it and so we decided to get him one.
We bought a much bigger car and later that afternoon, Bert and Daniel went to the park to play his new RC-car.
The boy and his friends were there too, Bert went up to them, and pointed at his car, showing off.
LOL

I'll try to remember to upload the picture of him wih his RC-car, smiiling.
(:

2011-09-13T21:50:00.007+08:00

News Update:
The exgf in my previous post, settled with a certain amount of USD$.

I hate classes bcos it's boring.
I love classes bcos I don't have to pay attention in class and still scored an A.
*pardon me* :p

Time is definitely a rocket.
Baby Rian is a month+ already.
Hope P will be able to breastfeed baby Rian up to 2 years (:

Watched Bad Teacher last night.
Cameron Diaz decided to go for natural boobs at the end of the movie.
But I definitely want a boobs job til the end of my life.
I know, I know, you guys reading this will go "wtf?" "are you becoming the 2nd Pam Anderson?"
Nyeh, whatever. I think doubleDs are cool. I'm stuck in a B/C *rawrrrrrrr*

P.S I still think the girl with the initials A.K is such a garbage whore.
P.P.S She and her friends are very proud with using a Rp. 29.000 Maybelline's compact powder, posting the picture on FB with caption "we love maybelline!" *eew?*

2011-09-13T15:58:00.003+08:00

Hello.

I'm up with a very good story to share.

This morning, a friend of mine who is currently in Seattle bbm-ed me.

Let me start with the background of our friendship.

Her name is Irene.

We've been friends since we were in secondary school, in Singapore.

Different school though, she's from GESS and I was from QSS.

Her parents took her back after a series of i-like-him-my-parents-don't-like-him-getting drunk and all the dramas.

Not gonna go into details bcos I'm not sure whether she would want me to blog about it.

Then we still keep in contact up to today, she knew all my dramas too. LOL

Ohkay, back to the main story:

She bbm-ed me and

asked me to give a sentence

that is worse than "she's a slut and you are much better than her"

So I wanted the details of the story behind that so I can insult better :B

So it turns out her boyfriend-to-be had a long-distance girlfriend and they had been together for nine years.

The gf could not except the fact that her boyfriend is bored with the same bra size.

So the gf came to Seattle and she banged on Irene's door.

Irene, who was having a hungover opened the door without looking at the peephole (she is not using her sober mind,, well stupid I must say).

So the gf rushed in with her friend and pushed Irene and poured water on her, lots of screaming and swearing etc. The neighbours pulled them apart.

So the gf asked for USD$10, 000 (Ten thousand US-Dollars) if the boyfriend wants a clean break,

So with that story I came up with a good sentence.

"What do you call a girl who ask for payments in exchange for companion?"

Answer is: Whore/ Prostitute.

see.

Ohkay, I'm in a rush now.

Ta-daaa.

2011-08-18T20:42:00.002+08:00

School started already. Feeling exhausted almost everyday.

Neway,

P has given birth almost a week ago!

Congrats to her being a mommy, bet she'll be a protective kind :b

I hate the local government.

I don't understand why people make calls behind your back, as though they're cheating on you.

We shouldn't take life too hard, let God decide in which life level He wants you to be in.

Bcos when you try too hard to reach a certain level you shouldn't be in, sooner or later He'll retrieve your everything bit by bit.

Random, I know.

2011-08-06T00:12:00.002+08:00

8/8 Mulia Hotel

9/8-11/8 Morrissey Hotel

2011-08-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

Remember the times when we use to put our fingers inside those two holes and turned it?

2011-08-01T20:41:00.002+08:00

We live with our family.
We live with our friends.
We live with our foes.
But none matters because what matter is yourself.
Bcos before you can change others make sure you can change yourself.
You want to change your surroundings? Start with yourself.
You want to change the world? Start with yourself.

2011-07-27T00:01:00.002+08:00

Late.
Everyone hates that word.
Late promotion. Late period (unwanted pregnancy). Latecomers.
Name all the things that has got to do with LATE,,
and I'm sure most of it are negatives and the majority hates it.

2011-07-21T20:48:00.002+08:00

Dyed my hair today.
I wanted RED, like REAALLL RED, it turns out to be brownish red.
With 80% brown and 20% red.
Ermm on second thought maybe 95% brown 5% red.
Waste money nia.. wahlao.
Guess I'll have to dye it again next month.

Recently, I'm mad crazy about face care, make-ups etc.
I was mad crazy before now I know. But this time it's muchmucmuch more.
I wasn't into lip care, but I bought a Givenchy's gloss.
And I'm thinking to get L'oreal's lipshine for the daily one and YSL's lipstick.
Bobby Brown's eyeshadows.
I know I've always been a MAC and MAKEUPFOREVER person but somehow Bobby caught my attention and, I'm thinking to have a fling.
And oh, you MUSTHAVE Shu Eumura's EYELINER! The price is quite unreasonable though fpr an eyeliner, Rp 500k
Damn. They are awesome. It's in marker form, like the whiteboard marker.
And as usual, Dior compact powder is top. But I bought a new formulation, it's the DIOR NUDESKIN.
They have 3 parts which enables you to shade.
P said YSL has a good mascara and wolipop.com says so too.
So that's another one I have to add in to my list.
And MAC's loose powder!
I gotta spend one MC job to get them.
But it's worth it, trust me.

I don't think it's wise for you to just anyhow put on things on your face.
It's your present and future man.
I wouldn't put those two at stake.
Present:
People look at you and they will either say "You are pretty" or "You are ugly like shit"
Future:
Delay the wrinkles. No man would love you a 40+ woman with wrinkles which can be folded.

And don't. NEVER. EVER. buy fake brands. Like fake MAC, fake this fake that.
It will totally ruin your face, sooner or later.
I would rather save bit by bit to get a quality certified powder, lipstick, etc, a little pricey than get the normal one but face is totally ruin.

This is an advice.

2011-07-14T12:05:00.002+08:00

I'm thinking on what to blog while typing.
Ohkay thought of one.

Seriously I have an issue with people who use foreign languages but DO NOT know how to use it properly.
Not that I'm an expert in language or what, just that it irritates me.
I seriously prefer and respect people who use a language which they are good in.
What's the purpose of writing statuses in English when it's gramatically wrong? That would deliver a different meaning, do you even know that?
What's worst is,,
when they use it for business.
Adverts, CARDS DESIGNS(wedding invits, birthday invits).
Stupid or what.
You want to do business? Good.
In English? Great.
With wrong grammar and vocabs? Go to hell.
It would be so much wiser for you to ask someone to edit it before you publicise it. Seriously.
I would be downright ashamed if I were you.
Using English definitely makes you look 'smarter' but with errors, that totally makes you look like a pathetic moron who tries to ACT SMART.

Ga usah sok jago English, toh lo jadi keliatan kayak orang bego :S
Mending lo pake bahasa Indonesia yang baik dan benar jadi ga terus-terusan jadi bahan hinaan gue :D

2011-07-08T09:01:00.002+08:00

ZOMG.
Finally, I can blog.
I've been DYING to type the 'what's no your mind?' answer.
I've got soooo sooooooo sooooooo SOOOOOOOOOOO many things on my mind.
To the point I was thinking to spam-blog.
I'll write several entries in one day.

If you happen to follow my twitter, a few days ago there were several insulting tweets.
For those whom I talk to every now and then definitely knows, those tweets were meant for who.
LOL.
Tweet A:
I was so devastated when someone said I look a lil bit like Daniel's exgf.

Tweet B:
Someone told me she is cohabiting with her bf.

The reason why I hated her is bcos,
a few years back, she fucking asked Daniel "why would you be proud of a junkie?"
and a few more, somehow she said I'm a cheapo maybe bcos I was already living in Daniel's house.
Actually I don't really mind if you call me that, IF YOU, can do better than me, living a much more holy life than me. Well, if you cant, the you should just shut the fuck up.
I know I shouldn't be such a hater, shouldn't hold grudges.
I've considered making peace with her.
Like what Yurry did with me (HELLO YURRY).
Yurry was one of my ex's gf a year ago, she was after me. We had a rough beginning, haha.
Thank's to my idiotic fatass exbf, making scenes such as, I'm begging him to fuck him on new year's eve, which is so not true.
Having a relationship with Yurry already, but still contacted me crying begging to get back.
Idiot or what.

Back to the exgf.
I don't know if she is worth hating.
But I still can't forgive her for the things she said, BCOS, she herself can't be better than me.
Her style sucks, her face sucks, everything about her sucks :b

2011-06-27T16:06:00.000+08:00

Like it or not,
you have to fuck off if I don't like you.
Thank you *curtsy

2011-06-19T01:05:00.002+08:00

Being married at this age, makes me a love-relationship consultant.
I'm flattered.
Listening(more like, reading) to teens telling their problems really make me speechless.
A few minutes ago, this young man was bbm-ing me telling me:
His gf wanted to break up with him bcosher mother wants them to be serious, so she demand her daughter to meet the bf's parents.
The bf is 19 years old, the gf is 18 years old.
I wouldn't do so if I'm the girls' mother. Why?
Bcos that makes you seems despesrate even though maybe you aren't.
And bcos I know my daughter has got her pride and worth.

BTW,
my ulcer is still there, and in a few hours time I need to talk rubbish like nobody's business.
I don't really like people to call my husband 'oneal', and I mentioned it to him bfore.
I told him he has such a much nicer name, Daniel, why would he want people to call him using other people's name?
Sorry, I'm not like his exgfs. They let him be whatever he want to be, even when he looks like an idiot.
I definitely would want Daniel to look his best with all his charm, knowledge and smartness (:

2011-06-16T23:12:00.002+08:00

跟你说个秘密。
第
1。我很闷
2。我非常地闷
3。我真的真的超级无级地闷
4。你也一定很闷！要不然为什么你待在这里呢？哈哈哈哈

这个秘密很特别因为，你可以告诉别人，没问题的。
就这样咯， byeeeee。

2011-06-16T22:26:00.011+08:00

Some of the many other pictures. That's the chronolgy of my birthday bash.

It's actually on Facebook but it's set to private by the blue-stripe-shirt guy. Thankfully.
I was totally make-up-less, can die if everyone is able to see it.

Btw the title of the album Happy ICY Birthday Elisa.
Icy: I got ice-cubes poured on me at 12AM(local time, GMT +8) *slapsforehead

and yes, my husband is a bitch.

2011-06-16T21:33:00.005+08:00

I've been itching to post a new post! *scratchscratch
Like I've tweeted few weeks ago, my laptop decided to take a leave and the battery resigned.
Bcos Blackberry doesnt have an app for pretty bloggers like me and others, I can't post anything.
I've got an ulcer on my left cheek and it's like at the tip of the the inner cheek, so pain can *singlishaccentplease
and the worst part is, I've got an MC job on Sunday, which is like 2 more days. I hope it heals bfore that, I talk less when I've got an ulcer. I wish I could bbm instead.
The job would be on every Sunday of this month and the first Saturday of July.

Let's talk serious matter.
Does your armpit smells? Go smell your armpit now. If you still can't detect any smell, use your forefinger, put it on your armpit(any side, both side is better), rub it, now, put your finger under your nose and breathe in.
Smelly?
My new maid has serious armpit smell. RRRWAAWWWRRR
I remember my secondary 1 & 2 class used to have a girl with serious body odour, and in secondary 2 she sit beside me. Yes, I breathe in THAT odour for 1 year straight.
We (P, ngmin, val, aud and I) decided to do a survey. We wrote on a piece of paper "What do you think of body odour?" something like that, I can't remember exactly and we passed it around the class.
After everyone wrote their opinions, we paste it on the board at the back of our class so everyone could read it.
The remarks were awfulshit.
If I don't remember wrongly, someone mentioned that girl's name.
and she cried.
She knew we were the one who started it, bcos we always start something awful. HAR HAR HAR.
Since we were chair buddies and she is the smartest girl in class (her spectacles degree was 1000!), being a nice girl, I somehow made my way to make her feel better (I think I did) bcos we still talk up to today.

Don't get us wrong, we are really nice people, trust me.

2011-06-07T18:54:00.003+08:00

How do you like my new skin?
I think it's lovely (pls, read the lovely part with British accent, read as lafly)
I looked at a few of the skins and decided on this, bcos
it has got a huge rouge lipstick and a pair of legs with heels.
No tagboards, it will invite hatetags and when there's no hatetags, your blog looks like an abandoned cemetery.

Talking about cemetery,
let's try not to cry when people close to us die.
Bcos it will just make them feel guilty for leaving.
Then, they might decide to come back, and when they come back you start finding ways to get rid of them. Evil aren't you?

2011-04-14T14:58:00.002+08:00

I was reading P's blog(cempakarie.blogspot.com) a few seconds ago
and
I realized how dead my blog is!
It's time to change skin and I'll add on some other things.

I'm getting dull and duller.
Is that what you call 'motherhood'?
My definition of dull:

I dont get to stay out late as much
I skip many events
I dont club
I dont smoke

I spend alot of time thinking about my weight.
Yes, no action yet,,
I did ran but I only kept that schedule for a week *grins*

P and I were bbm-ing the other day on marriage problems
and how memories kept us going.
Memories, bad or good,, it reminds you of how far have you go.
Don't just keep those good one, you will run out of them someday.
Those imbecile moments and stupidy are the one which enable you to smile.

2011-03-29T21:04:00.010+08:00

made a tumblr about a month ago,,

BUT

blogger BEST.

why can't it be in bb app. Urgh

neway.

haters, I'm living a real happy live.

i dislike men who tweets on

how they are missing their crush.

shitfuck,

the reason why you are single is bcos,

you twit and retweet like this,,

it was u.. who put the cloud around me.. it was u.. blablablalltheshitshitsgaysthing.

if i were tht girl, you freaktheshittfuckoutofme man.

one word.

EEWFTTM

2011-01-16T19:04:00.003+08:00

hey.
it's been long since we met.

you.
i kept dreaming of you, the childhood memories kept crawling back.

it's silly, but I cant help it.

2010-12-09T21:54:00.001+08:00

I'm not insulting, I'm just critizing.
But well you know, picture speaks a thousand words.

2010-08-26T16:38:00.002+08:00

Busy with the newborn and
today made the choice of ignoring everything and hav some time to hunt some fashion.
I found a new clothing link.
it's all about vintage.
vintagemartini.com
it has almost everything that has the odour of vintage.
Clothings, magazines, hats, accessories, pictures and so on.
Picture for the day, from CHANEL.
no, it's not vintage.

2010-08-15T19:34:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to our son.

2010-08-15T14:08:00.000+08:00

It's been a week ever since I given birth.
Gave birth to a baby boy on 8 August 2010.
Elbert Elexander
Weight: 3405 grams
Height: 50 cm

shall post his pictures after my bb is done charging.

2010-08-03T12:15:00.000+08:00

It's August.

Means:

end-of-year is nearing
a little boy is coming out to call us 'Daddy' and 'Mommy' soon
Daniel is entering the university
Time passes so quickly (it always does)

There are manymany life points I wanna talk about but however some I tweeted already, and mostly, I forgot about it already.

Bestfriend is getting married in 68 days (:

Son will be born in a few weeks/days time, just waiting for that REAL contraction to happen.

Got the contraction somewhere last week, but it was a false alarm.

Everyone in the family is fat, oddly enough I'm not as fat as most preggers or them.

My husband.

My mama.

My papa

My dogs.

2010-07-06T23:02:00.003+08:00

I decided to continue using this link for my blog.

Yea, I'm fickle-minded definitely.

Anyway got this on my head.

"I may not be perfect, I may not be the girl you dreamt of, I may not be what you hope for.

But guess what?I'm the one who loves you in every circumstances, in every shape you are in, no matter how life kick the shit out of you"-elisa.

I kinda like that.

Say whatever you wanna say, call me vain, call me whatever.

I like it, what can you do?

And I'm sure if you laugh at it, I doubt you can make one as good as me.

:DD

2010-07-02T09:35:00.003+08:00

everything is done (:

The essentials things are:

smile and hope.

Everyone has their own way of finding happiness,

and we made ours.

Andso, to those people we left,

the future is never too bleak nor too dark.

ESP: YOU

Don't do silly things which will ruin your future.

-This shall be my last post, I'm creating a new blog (:-

2010-06-20T01:20:00.002+08:00

Main Name: Elbert

Taken from Albert Einstein, but Daddy say shall have Mommy's nickname (EL) in my name.

Middle Name: Elexander

It's Daddy's middle name (Alexander) collaborated with Mommy's nickname and Grandma wants my main and middle name to have the same vowels.

Surname: Wijaya Maukar

2010-06-16T00:44:00.002+08:00

Due date is coming closer and I kept having labour dreams -_-"
Can't wait til June is over.
Daniel is much more excited than I am.
He was worried bcos I didn't gain any weight.
Luckily today we went for the usual check-ups and the baby reached 2kg, finally.
Bought almost all the equipments and clothings for the baby already (:
And world cup,
I stayed up late which cost me nags from Daniel.
Despite that,
Brazil, I'm watching you tonight!
And Ivory Coast played well just now
(:

2010-05-14T17:12:00.003+08:00

Get a hold on yourself.

As your words shame you and your

defeat.

Your denial shows you never actually get over other's happiness.

No, I'm not quarreling with anyone.

I came across a conversation on facebook and what's above was just my opinion.

No hard feelings.

I'm neither a bitter nor hateful woman,

I just love to gossip.

2010-05-11T20:59:00.003+08:00

We went for the 4D ultra sonography scan.

Got our turn at 3AM and got back at 5AM.

Gyne: Dr Dario Turk

Hospital: RS MEDISTRA, KUNINGAN

And this is the result :DD

He is soooooo Daniel.

Look at the lips!

2010-04-29T23:27:00.002+08:00

Thank God.

I wanna thank everyone for the wishes (:

and all those who had been with me throughout my whole 20 years of living,

and also for the past one year.

Especially,

my parents, Daniel and my friends.

without them, I won't make it til this day.

My parents had been supporting me for the past 20 years, my friends for the years we remembered,

and Daniel for the past 1 year and for the rest of my life.

I love you all so much.

Well, if you asked me,

what's the best present I received this year?

Daniel.

He is the best present God has given me throughout my whole life, despite our quarrels.

and Daniel Jr of course.

They are a package actually ((:

once again, thank you so much.

2010-04-11T15:49:00.001+08:00

We are seeing Daniel Jr tomorrow with the new gyne, Dr. Dario Turk SpOG.

Through the 4D scan.

Excited? Yesssssss.

2010-03-30T17:34:00.002+08:00

Look what you've done!

I broke my nail! It bleeds and it hurts so much.

I hate you.

I have a secret.

I miss M :(

Pfft.

It's been ages since we talked.

We never actually speak since my wedding,

which was 3 months ago.

It's just, funny when I don't talk to him at least to scold or joke.

I miss him and I feel like crying.

I don't know why.

He was a friend who joked with me, when I cried.

He gave perspectives which I never thought of.

He enlightens me in dark moments.

And I always tell shits to him and we'll quarrel.

So is this the end of our X years of friendship?

You know, Daniel can't never be the same as you.

I miss you.

2010-03-26T18:58:00.004+08:00

Daniel got accepted in the Law course.
We both are starting school on the 9th of August.
Daniel Jr. is out by then.
(:
We went to the gyne on Wednesday for the routines.
And the doctor showed us his face :D
As for the bird nest we were finding,
it was a success!
((:

Cempaka Ayu Rizkiani is excited and stressed out at the same time
bcos her wedding is.
6 months and 2 weeks away from today.
(:

2010-03-10T16:21:00.003+08:00

Things to highlight :

My bestfriend is getting married in 7 months time!
Daniel got me an early birthday present, which is LOVELY (:
Next week we are touring around Sumatra, finding bird nest.
I'll take that as a holiday.
Daniel is going for a test on March 14, 2010 at Atma Jaya Univeristy, he is taking Law.
We are starting school together in August!
Daniel Jr. is kicking and moving all the time

2010-02-28T20:17:00.002+08:00

It's the 2nd day I'm away from Daniel.
It's not our first time, but it still do happens you know.
The longing to be in his arms, and getting kisses from him.
I still miss him.
Many say after marriage the sparks will eventually be gone,
but I don't believe in that.
It's how we want our marriage to be.
You want to keep the sparks or you want to it to burn out.
Evidence:
My aunt's parents-in-law.
They are in their late 60s and 70s yet they both still look at each other as though they can't get enough of one another.
Not in a disgusting way, but it's sweet.
They will look at each other so tenderly, so sweetly.
That you just want to be like them.
No doubt there will be quarrels and fights.
Some are major some are minor.
What's important is,
how you deal with it.
The longer you keep the hate and anger, the more you are letting that sparks to burn out.
Really.
And I believe you'll definitely marry the man you love.
And if that LOVE manage to persuade you to marry him, why can't it persuade you to keep the spark?
Isn't it so?
I love Daniel, alot.
More than anything, more than myself even.
And he might not love me the same way I love him.
But I know,
I wanna be with him whatever it takes.
Although sometimes, I always spurt out the word 'divorce'.
Every romantic dramas which I watched, reminds me of him.

It will never be a mistake marrying the man you love.
Just make sure that you'll stick by him whatever happens 'til one of you die.
The mistake in marriage life is,
you chose to give up in bad times, forgetting all the love, romance and time you had spent with him.

2010-02-26T21:53:00.002+08:00

:(
I'm feeling so sick.
Only ate a meal, don't know why.
Usually I ate ALOT.
Seriously.

I tried to put in some food, but it came out again.
I'm not usually like this, seriously.
:'(

2010-02-25T01:11:00.001+08:00

It's not that I wasn't appreciative or what,
I love it so much and all of you.
Anyway,
it's 12.30AM.

had a long day, out with cempaka.
blog more tmr.

2010-02-16T21:46:00.003+08:00

Trypanophobia is the extreme and irrational fear of medical procedures involving injections or hypodermic needles.
There are four types of trypanophobia.
Vasovagal
Associative
Resistive
Hyperalgesic
I'm not sure whether I fall under
Vasovagal trypanophobia or Hyperalgesic trypanophobia.
Here's a brief explanation of both.

Vasovagal
Although most specific phobias stem from the individuals themselves, the  most common type of trypanophobia, affecting 50% of trypanophobes, is  an inherited vasovagal reflex reaction.

People who suffer from vasovagal trypanophobia fear the sight, thought,  or feeling of needles or needle-like objects. The primary symptom of  vasovagal trypanophobia is vasovagal syncope, or fainting due to a  decrease of blood pressure.

Hyperalgesic
Hyperalgesic trypanophobia is another form that does not have as much to  do with fear of the actual needle. Patients with this form of  trypanophobia have an inherited hypersensitivity to pain, or hyperalgesia.  To them, the pain of an injection is unbearably great and many cannot  understand how anyone can tolerate such procedures.

The symptoms of this form of trypanophobia include extreme explained  anxiety, and elevated blood pressure and heart rate at the immediate  point of needle penetration or seconds before.

-courtesy of Wikipedia

I tend to get nervous when I need to get my hand/body injected.
Like in the near time,
I need to get a blood check which means,
I'll need the nurse to put the bloody needle onto my hand and force it in with the bloody syringe
and then draws out my blood.
Worst of all,
I need to pay about S$200 to get my hand injured that way.
I hate needles.
When I got hospitalized a month ago because of stomach cramp,
they put the drip-thingy(what do you call that?) beside your bed and
they insert a damn big needle inside your vein so that the water will flow in.
Let me tell you,
the spot where they insert the bloody needle,
it sends electric shock to the back of my hand up to this very second when it is touch.
For all my life, 19 years of living in this very Earth,
it was my first time being hospitalized and
got such a big needle inside my vein overnight.
I don't do injections when I go to the doctor.
I always insist on medicine.
I don't let any needles no matter how small it is, to stick it's scary head inside my body.
Other than getting a VERY NECCESSARY blood test and accidentally getting prick by sewing needles.

You can laugh at me, whatever.

2010-02-15T09:08:00.002+08:00

How's your CNY and Valentine?
My CNY was dull bcos I no longer get angpaos except from my parents.
We had reunion dinner as usual.
I was the one giving angpaos instead of receiving.
and mind you, I can't give my cousins below 200k Rupiah for each cousin.
I have manymanymany unmarried cousins.
Thank you, for being there and taking those angpaos.
And I was reading Aud's blog, about saying the four letters word.
I still say it to my parents.
But as for my uncles and aunts, I don't even say it, the angpaos already on my hand.
As for my cousins, they don't speak good Chinese.
So how are they supposed to say the 4 auspicious letter words?
They still get the angpaos anyway, so why bother?

Valentine was good.
Daniel and I had dinner at Four Season Hotel.
Their wine was good (:
and they gave free roses and chocolates.
As for the food,
I preferred Ritz Carlton's(we went there for Daniel's birthday).
Although FSH, has more varieties, Ritz won over it bcos of their taste.
Ritz is much more exclusive in terms of food and place.
Try it.
(:

This month,
I had 3 big meals in 3 continuous day.
12-Daniel's birthday
13-CNY reunion dinner
14-Valentine

How was yours?

2010-02-15T09:05:00.001+08:00

we are all selfish people.
why do I say so?
bcos ALL of us could stand the smell and sight of our own 大便,
but not others.
Right?
:D

2010-02-08T16:14:00.000+08:00

I'm looking forward to
12 FEBRUARY
and
14 FEBRUARY.
Can't wait for it!!
:DD

2010-02-08T12:53:00.002+08:00

Please, Please Pardon ME.
A friend of mine was just asking how is she?
And asked for her pictures,
so here it is.
I don't mean to insult or anything.

2010-02-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

Maybe you had read my previous posts.
:D
Nevermind, I grew out of it.
And I think it shall never be a problem, if we both are separated, in pursue of our success.
(Although, he had yet to agree on me going back to campus, he has his reasons)
Forgive me, I mean,
I'm young and yet I'm married, Thanks God.
And he is coming on the 12th!
And we are having dinner at Ritz Carlton.
:DD
I'm just so happy, bcos.
I.AM.MEETING.DANIEL.AND.WE.ARE.SPENDING.CHINESE.NEW.YEAR.TOGETHER.
Maybe, it doesn't sounds THAT great,
but he is busy with this and that and he is willing to cancel them off
to come here!
:DDD

There are so many things I'm looking forward to this week!
Like, meeting my ugly bestfriend.
Cempaka Putri Ayu Rizkiani.
She is not as sweet and lovable as her name.
She has ugly unibrows, which need threading ALL THE TIME.
She is disgustingly skinny and short, and HAIRY!.
but I love her.

2010-02-06T19:50:00.001+08:00

There't nothing much I can do.
I tried to keep things the way it is.
Whatever, it's your choice.

2010-02-06T09:21:00.002+08:00

I'm getting a hair cut today!
And going to the gynae(how do you spell tht?The doctor you got to, when you are pregnant), blood check.
Plus change in doctor, bcos I won't be going back to Bandung.
I need a gynae in Jakarta.
And shop!
Remind me I'm meeting

Cempaka on the 9th for lunch
Denys on the 11th after lunch
Hendy Wongso

I've made up my mind.
I'm staying in Jakarta for good.
Where in the world you can find a husband,
who would rather spent his new year eve with his sister instead being with his wife?
Or,
which husband would prefer to send his sister EVERYDAY to school by motorbike,
35km away from home,
instead of accompanying his pregnant wife to eat noodles?

Call me selfish, but tht's the way I am.
If you are unhappy, feel free to file a divorce.
I'll gladly sign the papers!
Sadly, I don't like to share with other people.

What I mean by this is, when I just took off my clothes,
either someone will open the door or someone screams his name.
When he came back to the room,
I don't feel like having sex anymore.

2010-02-06T00:32:00.000+08:00

Dahulu terasa indah
Tak ingin lupakan
Bermesraan s'lalu jadi satu
Kenangan manis

Tiada yang salah
Hanya aku manusia bodoh
Yang biarkan semua ini permainkanku
Berulang ulang ulang kali

Mencoba bertahan sekuat hati
Layaknya karang yang
Dihempas sang ombak
Jalani hidup dalam buai belaka
Serahkan cinta tulus di dalam takdir

Tak ayal tingkah lakumu
Buatku putus asa
Kadang akal sehat ini
Belum cukup membendungnya

Hanya kepedihan
Yang s'lalu datang menertawakanku
Engkau belahan jiwa
Tega menari indah di atas tangisanku

Tapi sampai kapankah ku harus
Menanggungnya kutukan cinta ini

Semua kisah pasti ada akhir
Yang harus dilalui
Begitu juga akhir kisah ini yakinku indah

Tapi sampai kapankah ku harus
Menanggungnya kutukan cinta ini
Bersemayam dalam kalbu

2010-02-05T23:23:00.004+08:00

Do you know how much I love you?
I'm willing to give up everything just to be with you.
But what have you ever done for me?
The most important people in your life are your family.
Not me.
Do you know how much that hurts?
I gotta move on and break all kind of relationship with you,
because I don't want my child to suffer like I did.

ps. I love you so much and it's not easy to let go.

2010-02-05T19:26:00.005+08:00

` Hian J - says: (6:07:06 PM)
i never smoke la
` Hian J - says: (6:07:16 PM)
i was just holding the packet cause i was drunk
` Hian J - says: (6:07:24 PM)
then the smoke happen to be in that photo
EL says: (6:07:32 PM)
packet or stick?
` Hian J - says: (6:07:51 PM)
holding packet
` Hian J - says: (6:07:57 PM)
stick was else one
EL says: (6:08:11 PM)
ohh.
` Hian J - says: (6:08:44 PM)
ok so i made myself clear

See, even someone like Hian Jing bother to explain.
That kind of moron who claims who think with penis and biceps.
I bet YOU are much much much worse than him.
that moron still can give advise, YOU?
*snorts

so, _|_ you, D.
(:

2010-02-04T21:21:00.002+08:00

You know what's disgusting?
When someone claimed how great she is and how she had removed a friend.
that shows how childish you are miss.
you are nice and kind,
but don't you think you are wayyyy over too sensitive?
Oh, I didn't forgot your kindness, if you claimed I had already forgotten.
But you deleted me just bcos of a joke on your teeth.
Funny?You are ridiculous.
Maybe next time you should think twice before stating how angry and disappointed you are
on other's facebook wall.

2010-02-04T14:54:00.004+08:00

After I'm married,
I always have this habit of
holding Daniel's hand and sleep.
Although we each have a pillow, I won't use mine.
I'll put mine aside and share a pillow with him.
sometimes, we'll sleep back to back even after quarrelling.
It's like, I won't sleep well if I don't attach myself to him.

Last night, I gotta put my pillow bhind my back,
bcos when I tried to sleep at first, I felt my back is empty.
And he complains he can't sleep as well.
At least, I felt asleep pretty quick and woke up late.
He called and we wished good night at 10PM, I was busted yesterday.
In the morning I read an sms saying he couldn't sleep and wants me to go back.
at 11:58PM -.-

I think it has become a habit holding something, or someone to be exact before we sleep.

2010-02-02T23:39:00.002+08:00

Spent the day with Mom and aunt.

It doesn't felt as boring as it sounds.

They have very high-sense of humour.

And dirty-jokes+tales.

so you will never get bored.

We spent the morning tiramusi-ing and coffe-ing at The Peak, Bandung of course.

Then we went to Tebing view.

Closing our day with salon.

Forgotten to take pictures :(

shall remember it the next time!

I end mine by attending an event which Daniel played guitar in it.

and we head off for dinner.

p.s I bought a mini dress, i think it's cool enough for a pregnant lady.

And no, I don't wear pregnant ladies outfit.

and I don't think I will.

2010-01-27T18:59:00.002+08:00

Last night I dreamt of the times when we were all still in Queensway.

It was in the stadium, Sports Day.

Bonnie and I were running.

I was supposed to be in Phoenix but instead I wore Centaur's shirt.

That cause P they all to be mad at me.

The dream felt so real.

Like just how it used to be.

I miss all the things we used to do like,

having lunch with them,

or walking from Far East all the way to HMV,

window shopping,

be it after school or in the weekends,

sitting the 111 bus to go Orchard,

rushing to town bcos I'm always late, receiving calls from them and lying I'm on my way whereas actually I'm still in my bathroom,

recess time in the school canteen.

I don't know how many times I had blogged on how much I missed those routines.

I knew somehow, I wouldn't be able to go back there and I will never be part of them.

I mean, unlike P who decided to spend the rest of her life there by marrying Ari.

The four of them could still be in contact and so on, how far will they drift apart?

Up to today, they still hang out together.

I promise myself I'll go there often as soon as things are stable enough.

2010-01-27T10:36:00.001+08:00

Here's a picture of our baby.

The doctor say, it might be a boy.

Bocs it has lil thingy hanging out, but to be asure, we gotta wait for another month/s.

2010-01-26T13:34:00.002+08:00

Fascinating facts.

About our body.

On average, you speak almost 5,000 words a day - although almost 80% of speaking is self-talk (talking to yourself).
It is impossible to sneeze and keep one's eyes open at the same time.
Men loose about 40 hairs a day. Women loose about 70 hairs a day.
(Does that means the percentage we go bald is much higher than men?A qns by me myself)
The bones in your body are not white - they range in colour from beige to light brown. The bones you see in museums are white because they have been boiled and cleaned.
We actually do not see with our eyes - we see with our brains. The eyes basically are the cameras of the brain. One-quarter of the brain is used to control the eyes.
The length from your wrist to your elbow is the same as the length of your foot.
Einstein's brain was of average size (1375 grams - 49oz).

People
The oldest person on record is Methuselah (969 years old).
There are more than 600 million telephone lines today, yet almost half the world's population has never made a phone call
Julius Caesar was known as the "Gay Emperor"
Leonardo da Vinci could write with the one hand and draw with the other simultaneously.
Alexander Graham Bell never phoned his wife or mother because they were deaf.

Factoids
Barbie was introduced at the New York Toy Fair on 9 March 1959; her real name is Barbie Millicent Roberts and her parents are Ruth and Elliot Handler. Barbie has four sisters: Skipper (1964), Stacie (1992), Kelly (1995) and Krissy (1995).
Ken, Barbie's boyfriend, debuted in 1961. Unfortunately, they split up on Valentine's Day 2004.
The names of all the continents end with the letter they start with.
Eskimos use refrigerators to keep food from freezing.
The sentence "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog" uses every letter of the alphabet
Lightning strikes men about seven times more often than it does women.
There are no letters assigned to the numbers 1 and 0 on a phone keypad. These numbers remain unassigned because they are so-called "flag" numbers, kept for special purposes such as emergency or operator services

2010-01-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

cemPaka//- says:

yah. for a pessimist im pretty optimist

cemPaka//- says:

which is ironic at some point

EL says:

when I went into rehab, there are so many fucked up things that happens, but I try to look on the good side and think positive.

EL says:

when Daniel is acting like a fucked up bastard, I'll try to kill him at first but look on his good side.

EL says:

when you read my blog, one day I'll be blogging about how suck marriage life is and what an asshole he is, another day how wodnerful he is.

2010-01-23T22:15:00.002+08:00

Let's forget about all the tears and bruises.

Shall post some happier photos, though taken a week ago.

2010-01-23T22:14:00.002+08:00

Cempaka Nugraha sometimes, some things don't turn out the way you want..

2010-01-22T17:22:00.001+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=30494397&id=1309897822#/photo.php?pid=30494397&id=1309897822&fbid=1198933136041

Daniel, Elisa & Maggie.

Maggie is real, i mind you.

I really LOVE VAA photography.

credits: Om Erwin, Tante Yenny Setiadi.

2010-01-21T00:02:00.004+08:00

Hello, this is a recent picture of me.
Bcos many asked for a recent picture to see my tummy.
Sadly, my digicam is in Jakarta so only manage with lappy's webcam.

So do you think I lose weigtht, gain or just the same?
:D

2010-01-20T16:25:00.003+08:00

I shouldn't just complain how my marriage life goes.

I should mention

Daniel is the one who does all the cooking
He never complains when I wake up late
He scrubs my feet
He doesn't whine when I ask for pricey food
He doesn't shout when I didn't do my work, or came late for work
He prepares my attire in the morning
He tidies up the room and the mess that I always make

and a few others.

2010-01-20T16:10:00.004+08:00

I decided to delete my previous post.

Bcos I've realized how unimportant that girl is,

so why the fuck must I polute my blog with her name and existence?

ps. I'm so sorry if I offended you. Please remember you don't own this world, not in monetary terms and beauty terms, or in any other terms.This world doesn't evolve around you either.

For once and for all,

I do not want to have anything to do with you ever again.

Let me tell you guys this,

remember regarding the posts I was so curious about who was this person who kept sending me emails using the account freeze.hannah@gmail.com;

this girl Yurry Lee.

Treble Nawanug January 19 at 12:26pm

man.....so drama...., Even so, she is really too much. Anyway, yea lo jgn worry too much, tell ur mom i'll do my best to fix this, again sorry for the mess and just keep ignoring tt bitch

Treble Nawanug January 19 at 12:41pm

Wah, I din know tt, and its like few days after so gwe bener ga sampe pikir, maaaaaaan, I shud have revised our damn cultural practise, millions of apologies to u, Daniel & your mom!. Anyway, gwe dah ngomong ma panda, & gwe rasa its all gonna be okay, the only thing is i'm not sure how long it will be before tt 'cewe' started mouthing off & bring this matter along again somehow in the future...but for now its all good, so dun worry yea sa.

Thanx jg Sa

Yok

If you find my this post is incomplete, contact me as to how you can read the full version.

2010-01-13T20:57:00.003+08:00

when I ALMOST betrayed my 2 months old marriage and 8 months relationship,

I was awaken on how much actually I don't want to do it

and how much I love my husband.

He went out to get something and I chose to stay home.

I fell asleep.

Half an-hour later I was awaken by his voice,

I rushed out of the room but

to find noone.

Only half-an-hour later he got home.

There were so many times I wanted to leave him and

chose to lead my own life.

At the very last minute, I ended up shouting at him.

and we fought for the umpteen times,

but at the end

we'll hug each other, apologized and cried.

Is that what you call LOVE?

2010-01-11T13:41:00.002+08:00

the best person to talk to is still a girl,

and it's Cempaka.

When I talked to the male species,

they offered flings.

-_-"

2010-01-11T13:27:00.002+08:00

And I'm so sick of you
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of you so shit and pissed
So why can't I fuck you off?

2010-01-11T13:14:00.002+08:00

so, what's the point of asking?

when it all comes out the same as not asking, fuckhead.

2010-01-10T11:38:00.007+08:00

marriage life isn't always bad.

well, ups and downs.

However, I do miss the feeling of 'crushing'.

When you start to notice how cute a guy is,

and you try to find infos about him by all means.

Then you'll start to 'bump' into him every possible time,

making it looks like a coincidence.

When he smile for just being polite,

you'll be so excited you can't stop talking about it to your girlfriends.

You'll think of him day and night.

When you really meet him by chance,

you'll start to think 'it's faith!'.

You'll find a way to get in contact with him

and when he start to give a positive respond,

You'll save all the text messages/chat logs/emails/etc from him.

You know,

that's the most exciting part of a relationship.

and I ♥ only

that part.

2010-01-09T21:10:00.001+08:00

i wished i could vanished into thin air.

and stop having you as who you are.

2010-01-06T14:00:00.004+08:00

i really would love to continue my study.

back to campus life,

or should i say,,

normal life?

sometimes i get so tired of resting

i just felt like the living dead.

what was once a fairytale,

ended to be a nightmare.

P said i have to priorities.

I did.

But what good will it bring for me?

2010-01-04T14:19:00.001+08:00

when everyone is leading a better life,

I don't know what you call mine.

2010-01-04T13:26:00.003+08:00

sometimes when life gets too hard,

i felt like giving up.

My definition of

Life is hard is

When I couldn't get what I want
When things go against my wish
When I have to endure all the shits which I hate

I bet you'll agree with me.

and now,

I'm somewhat facing the

Life is hard phase.

2010-01-02T16:09:00.002+08:00

Marriage isn't all about happiness.

I used to have this idea;

marriage is the solution to everything.

you have your own life,

you have your freedom,

an entry pass to adult life,

where you can do whatever you want.

After being married for a few months,

i realised marriage is just living a different way of life.

As we grow older,

the more responsibilities we have to bear.

And it wasn't as easy as it seem.

Marriage.

P and her fiance wished i could get wiser.

and that's what I'll be learning this year.

Getting wiser.

2010-01-02T15:44:00.001+08:00

Canda tawa

tangisanmu

air mataku
Tak ku sesali

Pelukanmu

amarahmu

pengorbananmu
Tak kan ku ganti

Semua yang harus kita alami
Membuat kita ’tuk saling mengerti

Coz I love you
Coz I need you
And I want you
By my side

Keakuan tak buatmu ’tuk jadi ragu sayangi aku

2010-01-01T13:02:00.001+08:00

Kamu tampar aku lagi
Dengan penyakit lamamu
Semakin lama aku pun bisa
Menjadi benar-benar gila

Aku bukan wonder womanmu
Yang bisa terus menahan
Rasa sakit karena mencintaimu

Hatiku ini bukanlah hati
Yang tercipta dari besi dan baja
Hatiku ini bisa remuk dan hancur

2010-01-01T12:17:00.002+08:00

it's over.
i got my heart shattered,
i got my eyes filled.
all i want in life,
was you,
right beside me.

if what you chose
makes you happy and
it makes your life full of colours,
there's nothing i can do about it.

you chose your family which one day,
your parents will die, your sisters will get married and have their own life.
instead of your wife and your child.

wish you all the best, Daniel.
(:

2009-12-31T15:47:00.000+08:00

words can't buy me.
grow up and face the reality.

2009-12-30T18:46:00.002+08:00

Ku coba untuk bertahan
namun semua nya sia-sia.

2009-12-08T19:37:00.003+08:00

Things I'm highlighting:

my bestfriend is coming home veryy soon.
I am positively becoming a mom and Daniel is becoming a dad
I'm in love with J.Aldridge
and her seaofshoes.com
I seriously miss CEMP, MIN, AUD AND VAL.

2009-11-10T18:38:00.002+08:00

it's like 5 more days.

yes yes,

5 more days.

5 days more.

anyway,

in response to my anonymous friend.

I went in that disgusting, horrible, blood-sucking rehab

on April 3, 2009.

Somewhere in early May,

a woman came to our rehab for consultation.

I was called upon as an example of the rehab inhabitants.

( i swear anywhere is far better than that disgusting rehab)

Her son started to drink and use drugs,

because he was heart-broken

when he had to breakup with his 7-years-long girlfriend

as his mother disapprove her and

that lil b had an affair with someone else,

but asked to patch things up with him.

Name : Daniel

Age : 22

Daily Activities : Running a pre-school and kindergarten school

Problems : A pastor son yet he smoke, drink and uses drugs.

What triggers his problem : mother disapprove of his gf, gf parent wants a future.

He is a pastor son, mind you.

So on May 9, 2009.

I went to his church pretending I was on service.

Actually, I was used as a bait.

(tricky, disgusting but stupid rehab)

So, everything when as planned.

I went over and pretended I need a ride home.

So he sent me back with his car.

I went there with my councillor

(he is a short and fat, ugly and pervertic councillor)

and a guard

(who had prepared handcuffs)

So, that's how Daniel's arrestment end.

He wrote to me on a piece of paper,

"I LOVE YOU"

on May 23, 2009.

I rejected him.

On May 25, 2009

he wrote again.

I accepted him.

(Ohk, I know I'm fickle-minded)

No phones, No laptop, No computer

basically NOTHING is available

for communication purposes

inside that damn rehab.

The only way to communicate is,

L-E-T-T-E-R.

Man and woman are not allowed to sit together and

talk

for more than 5 minutes.

(IRONY,

whereas the staffs get pregnant inside tht rehab)

One day,

one of my letters was found.

So,

i had to be punished.

Room isolation.

(Mind you, the rehab do not have private rooms,

You sleep in a small living room with 5 double-deckers bed,

that's what they call ROOM)

Room isolation means,

I shall not go down for any activities.

Food will be send to that living room.

No baths, No tooth-brushing, no nothing.

You just stay there.

3 days.

God knows when,

before he left,

he kissed me twice.

Yea, lips and tongues.

HAHAHAHAHA.

Then on July 8(or 9 or 7), 2009

Daniel went back.

Then on July 12(or 13), 2009

I went back.

LOL.

Then we met again,

and so,

our parents decided we should get married.

if anyone wishes to know more details on life inside that

horrible-able-able-able rehab,

inform me.

2009-11-06T22:37:00.001+08:00

I got it.

Martabak Pandan.

J'adore.

And now,

I'm craving for Martabak Telor.

Shall save it for tomorrow's night!

2009-11-06T19:52:00.004+08:00

CAN I KNOW YOU???

your names and details!

freeze.hannah@gmail.com

wedding is like 9 days away.

and i don't know,

instead of getting on a very strict diet,

I just kept on feeling hungry.

and for tonight(and well, last night),

I'm still craving for

even though I had one box all to myself last night.

~_~

2009-11-04T19:15:00.001+08:00

when we are happy,

everything seems so easy.

when everything went wrong,

everyting feels so f u c k.

2009-10-31T14:50:00.001+08:00

PORSCHE CAYENNE 2010

J'ADORE.

2009-10-31T14:32:00.002+08:00

I don't remember my mama telling me not to talk to strangers.

I didn't and I won't.

and it applies to facebook as well.

I apologized for any person who feel offended,

as I ignored your friend request.

It doesn't and it won't help either by sending me a message.

especially threats.

2009-10-31T00:51:00.000+08:00

Archive:

August 2008.

2009-10-31T00:38:00.005+08:00

AS cempaka and I were reading through my archives.

she fuck-chee-bye-delete la me as they were silly.

i don't think i will.

good ol' times.

i found this on my archives.

wednesday, july 23, 2008

i might get married in three years time.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
YES!YES!YES!
woooooooooohoooooooooooo~~~~~~~~~

see, how things changes?It was only a year ago.

I said I might be getting married in 3 years time,

but here I am preparing for wedding

which is like 2 weeks away.

Funny how life surprises you.

2009-10-31T00:23:00.002+08:00

I might consider having two husbands.

Like those on the picture.

One is a musician, one is a singer.

((:

2009-10-29T15:18:00.003+08:00

My diet WAS Dunhill menthol and tequila/martini.

I'm cleaned of both for 2months already.

Though the urge of getting a packet of Dunhill still surfaces

each time I went in to a circle K mart.

I came upon the decision of quitting it all was because,

I don't think I want my kids to smoke and drink

like nobody's business.

and I don't wanna be impotent.

2009-10-26T10:58:00.001+08:00

bf said,,

he is getting me a BB today.

we shall see.

2009-10-25T13:01:00.002+08:00

I drop by Tiffany&Co.

And saw this diamond bracelet,

which my mom was looking for.

So I asked for the price.

It's 380mil Rupiah.

Bf and I loves to make a wish list.

And we concluded we'll need to have

1 family car, prolly Cayenne.

1 Ferrari/Lambo.

1 grand house

and 1 vacation house.

with kids.

Our life would be completed.

HOWEVER,

after visiting the Tiff&Co, store

I realised.

There is no limitation to our satisfaction.

2009-10-24T14:09:00.003+08:00

Agnes Kristina
There's something wrong with ME.. U know,im just ordinary woman,i have a little heart who can hurt.. man can't understand woman.. And woman can't understand man to.. But,in different world like that,man and woman can be in LOVE..can support each other..can survive in difference like that.. Did i can?

A woman who has a low standard of English like THAT.

Again,,

wanted to challenge English with moi.

Mon Dieu, Jesus!

C'est une ridicule mademoiselle!

2009-10-23T20:42:00.001+08:00

CLB's VIRGINITY

2009-10-23T19:58:00.001+08:00

DAYS OUT OF REHAB.

2009-10-23T19:08:00.003+08:00

Socializing time.

2009-10-23T18:41:00.002+08:00

HOLIDAYS AT DJOGJA.

2009-10-23T18:38:00.000+08:00

i owe myself alot of pictures to upload.

2009-10-18T17:16:00.002+08:00

I was reading P's blog.
and yea,,
one of her post made me teared.

Since she mention how we met and first impressions'.
Here's mine.

Yes, we met during the secondary one orientation day.
She was wearing framless glasses and
i thought,
she has a forehead way to big for her face.
and her hair is definitely wrong.
she is skinny,
short,
has unibrows
and HAIRY.

On the first day of school,
I forgotten how she looked like.
then there was this classmate of ours,
whom I thought it was Cempaka.
Bcos they had almost the same hair.
Ponytailed, short and need hair smoothing treatment badly.
but that was Alicia.

We went through many dramas.
Being friends, foes,,
back and forth.
We grew up and became mature.
We wanted to make a band named,,
LOVEPENTAGON.
but mind you,
none of us know how to play any music instruments.
Except the piano,
this apply to audrey and valencia.

We cried and laughed together.
Supported one another through many dramas.
Cempaka's family issue,
Ng min's grandma who passed away,
Val's, Audrey's
and well mine never got far from
Boy's and men's issues.
We hated P bcos she kept on borrowing money
and never return it.
But we just can't help to lend her.
We were irritated bcos Val followed either one of us
so that they will have the same likeness.
We thought Val was a lesbian.
They ignored me.
We wanted to ignored P.
We ignored Val.

Time passed
and all of us went through changes.
inevitable changes.
Some of those changes made us felt apart.
However,
i never felt our friendship is over
nor we aren't bonded as we were before.

P is still the first person I thought of
whenever I want to cry.
P is still the first person I talked to
whenever I have problems.
P is still the first person I-wished-she-was-here,
in every BIG event.

I don't think there is any other person
who can replace P.
seriously.
I know I'm gonna cry hard if she dies earlier.
and I'm gonna miss her so very much.